In Loving Memory...
I wrote a post the other day explaining why I have such a hard time in October. If you read it, and read down to the comments, it explains a lot of why my behavior has been so strange as of late. I'm also just plain not feeling well. Something is up with my heart again and the shortness of breath is beyond dealable for the moment and it was suggested by my cardiologist that I use my oxygen machine whenever I get short of breath or have any kind of dizziness that doesn't immediately go away after sitting down. Here's the thing, I take meds that make me dizzy all the time, so sometimes I put it off. Yesterday, I realized both my portable tanks are empty and I'm out of clean 50 foot tubing and cannulas so I have a whole new bullshit deal I have to handle for the week. Yesterday, I had a bout of hiccups (I know, seems really lame and benign, right?) but if you have a cardiac history like mine, you know hiccups that just won't go away are a bad thing. ...